swingate on January 31st, 2005

I think I finally have the separation I need to really get over her now. I still think she’s hawt, but I don’t really desire her anymore, which is good. I’m looking forward to seeing a great girl in March. It’s gonna be unreal to have that much time with her. Last time we were [...]

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swingate on January 24th, 2005

Worrying about something that may never happen is like paying interest on money you may never borrow.
Seems like such an easy thing to do……so why am I having such a hard time doing it? This has been one of the worst days ever. I can’t even bring myself to go there when they are both [...]

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swingate on January 21st, 2005

Time to play musical computers again. I have too many….six of them now. I’ve decided that at least 3 have to go, preferably 4. I don’t have as much time to use them now that I’m lifting again so they’re mostly dead weight, plus i’m just less of a geek now. I just want [...]

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swingate on January 17th, 2005

I have now gone thru the stages of Denial and Disappointment and now the Anger is setting in. Why didn’t I see this earlier? Why did I put up with it so long after she started turning away? She is so clearly not the person for me…her treatment of me these last two months makes [...]

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swingate on January 11th, 2005

I love this song……
Good times for a change
See, the luck I’ve had
Can make a good man
Turn bad
So please please please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want
This time
Haven’t had a dream in a long time
See, the life I’ve had
Can make a good man bad
So for once in my life
Let me get what [...]

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swingate on January 5th, 2005

I just lost possibly the most incredible thing I’ve ever experienced. I want to crawl under a rock and die right now. I am feeling sick to my stomach. I need to be wanted and I need to be GOOD ENOUGH for some-fucking-body.

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swingate on January 3rd, 2005

I feel like crap today.

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