It’s so nice to have you back where you belong
Posted by swingate | Filed under Amore & Vita, General
I think I finally have the separation I need to really get over her now. I still think she’s hawt, but I don’t really desire her anymore, which is good. I’m looking forward to seeing a great girl in March. It’s gonna be unreal to have that much time with her. Last time we were kinda rushed 
so it didn’t leave much time for small talk. Now we have to put up with each other long enough for our bad habits to show. She’s convinced I’ll hate her guts….I see just the opposite….should be interesting.
Hell, I might even dust off the old black book when I head back to Atlanta later in the year. There’s a few babes that have been asking when I plan to hit the ATL. Now that i’m back on the market I may have to consider it.
Words of wisdom
Posted by swingate | Filed under Amore & Vita, General
Worrying about something that may never happen is like paying interest on money you may never borrow.
Seems like such an easy thing to do……so why am I having such a hard time doing it? This has been one of the worst days ever. I can’t even bring myself to go there when they are both there. This has to stop or it’s going to eat away at me til there’s nothing left. I desperately need this upcoming vacation time.
On the other hand I made some custom running shoes at Nike.com. I would buy them but I just bought a pair Saturday. I saved the design so I’ll try to buy them next month. They’re even gonna say “GO DAWGS” on the heel. 
Gettin my geek on
Posted by swingate | Filed under General, Technology
Time to play musical computers again. I have too many….six of them now. I’ve decided that at least 3 have to go, preferably 4. I don’t have as much time to use them now that I’m lifting again so they’re mostly dead weight, plus i’m just less of a geek now. I just want to be left with one desktop computer and one mini computer, then replace my 19″ CRT with a 19 LCD panel. However I might have to get myself one of those Mac minis now…….or a laptop. LOL
Movin on
Posted by swingate | Filed under Amore & Vita, General
I have now gone thru the stages of Denial and Disappointment and now the Anger is setting in. Why didn’t I see this earlier? Why did I put up with it so long after she started turning away? She is so clearly not the person for me…her treatment of me these last two months makes that crystal clear. I deserve better than that; so does she…but if I wasn’t good enough she should have said so months ago when she knew I wanted more than she did.
Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want
Posted by swingate | Filed under Amore & Vita, General
Good times for a change
See, the luck I’ve had
Can make a good man
Turn bad
So please please please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want
This time
Haven’t had a dream in a long time
See, the life I’ve had
Can make a good man bad
So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows, it would be the first time
Lord knows, it would be the first time
Love Hurts
Posted by swingate | Filed under Amore & Vita, General
I just lost possibly the most incredible thing I’ve ever experienced. I want to crawl under a rock and die right now. I am feeling sick to my stomach. I need to be wanted and I need to be GOOD ENOUGH for some-fucking-body. 
pffft!
Posted by swingate | Filed under General
I feel like crap today.
