GRRRRR!
Posted by swingate | Filed under Amore & Vita, General
Why the f*ck can’t I stop wanting you? Everytime I think i’m escaping your clutches something pulls me right back in. I need answers. I need resolution. I need to know where I fucking stand. I need a drink. I need some booty. I need to STFU! Good night!
Yessirree Bob!
Posted by swingate | Filed under Amore & Vita, General
I can definitely feel myself moving on and moving forward. The last two weeks or so have been a real eye opener. There’s still some heartache but it gets a little easier every week. The last time I went thru something like this was about 12-13 years ago and I told myself then I couldn’t live thru it again. I guess Ahnuld was right…that which doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. It’s nice to have someone in your life you can always count on to just shoot straight with you EVERY single time. Thanks, babe. 
Why do people lie about inconsequential things?
Posted by swingate | Filed under General
I didn’t believe you did the first time nor the second, but it’s okay. It was just the wakeup call I needed.
Revelations
Posted by swingate | Filed under Amore & Vita, General
I think i’m starting to wake up and smell the coffee…..or at least that crusty film at the bottom of the pot when you leave it on the burner too long. Maybe i’m about to turn the corner on my feelings or something…I dunno, got more processing to do.
I’m gonna skip the gym today, grill on the balcony and watch a bowl game. I have the place to myself and that doesn’t happen often. My hands are kinda numb for some reason. I should go get a 6-pack.
Day One
Posted by swingate | Filed under General, Narcissism
Actually, it’s not Day one….more like Day 50 or something but it’s Day One of the journal so deal with it. On November 1st I weighed 255 lbs (I’m 5′8″) and as of last week I was down to 241 lbs. I’m back up to 243 or so; probably due to the fact that I started taking creatine which makes you retain water. The good news is that even with the weight gain my waist is still down 1/2″ or so. I eventually want to weigh 215-220 by next Christmas but for now I want to hit a fairly solid 233-235 by mid February or so.
About 15 years ago I made a New Year’s Resolution not to make anymore New Year’s Resolutions. So far that’s the only one i’ve kept. I do have a goal to look as good, if not better, than I did in college when I was a competitive bodybuilder. I’ll post my workout soon, right now it’s time for my bedtime protein shake. G’nite!
Yayyyy Me!
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I just switched to Dreamhost this weekend. Thanks Sherrod! This is my first and possibly last entry…….I’m kinda lazy like that. Actually this will probably become my personal workout journal interspersed with various outrageously boring tidbits about my love………..err let’s make that lust life. You see, it’s like this. I love two women. Neither of them love me back but i’m good friends with both of them. Due to matters of national security (and a desire to preserve my ability to have children) I can tell you absolutely nothing about either of them, except to say they are both drop dead gorgeous, very funny and all around super cool chicks. Neither of them live close to me, which is probably why they’re able to resist my normally overwhelmingly powerful animal magnetism. One is currently a “friend with benefits” and the other is potentially the greatest thing that’s never gonna happen to me. That one isn’t going so well at the moment and I’m really down about it (like really really down)…but c’est la vie! Oh, did I tell you I still live with my ex-girlfriend?
